Life is beautiful. I’m getting used to this now. I now know that being on my own is not the worst thing in the world, actually it is pretty good that no one can hurt you. You can do whatever you want whenever you want to… even if you’re willing to destroy your life no one will be there to tell you you can’t. I tried so many things, I thought about it a lot, I could have done a lot more I know but I didn’t. What’s the use. There’s just my feelings I care about now. So, if I wanna kill myself to ease the pain I would. But for now it’s going great. The only thing that makes me feel alive is to be around kids, being around them is really what I need right now. They have their little world where everything is possible, I know how beautiful things can be in the mind of a child. Their innocence, curiosity and cute words can really help anyone take their mind off things. So, my work is going great for now, I still am not sure what I’m going to do but for now it’s all good. I’m thinking about going back to see my mother, it’s been 15 years now since I last been there, and I still long for the peace I found there, may be I will go there and never come back. I don’t know anything yet. May be I’ll find something to make me forget, ’cause if not there’s gonna be a huge mess and nobody wants that. Let’s hope I wont need that.
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Being alone does not have to mean being lonely, It can also mean finding peace within yourself.
We keep hearing life is a gift but as many other gifts it’s how we look at it and what we do with it that makes a difference.
I know what its like to have that childhood place, sprinkled with memories and safety. No matter what happens, if you go back or not – Keep those memories and bring them out every now and then. It does us good.
Yes you’re right, being alone does not mean being lonely. And life being a gift, well, I don’t know about that. So far my life has been nothing but a disaster of sorts. Lol. And memories, well, they can be good and they can make a person’s life hell sometimes, if you know what I mean.
Anyway, thanks for your kind words, much appreciated! : )