Now you’re just somebody that I used to know!

So, this is how it feels to let go? I think I’m okay with that, not hurting so much like I used to and I’m getting the idea that being alone is not as bad as it was to be ignored. It is cold outside and for the first time in my life I hate it. I wanna go out, enjoy life, forget all that once used to be my world. But I have to admit that there are those moments of sadness still there, I guess I’m addicted to thinking about you all the time that now it’s just normal for me but last night was something else. I missed you. I missed you like you were some precious thing that got lost and I was trying to find it, but then I realized it was all in my head, you didn’t care, and you wouldn’t, so why should I. You know what was the thing that kept me there holding on to something that was never there? Your feelings. I know it seems too stupid but I know how it hurts to not have something you really want, to miss someone, so I stayed there all this time, to make you feel good, or rather not sad about it and that was my own fault that I cared too damn much for you that it hurts like hell to be alone. But now that I know you don’t really give a damn about it I’m ready to move on.  I wont wish you anything, not even a good life, cuz you’re NOTHING to me now and it makes no difference to me if you feel anything at all. You’ve lost me. I’m on my own, even though its hard but I’ll live, and someday I might even be happy with someone who would not throw me away like trash and actually would put me first. You see I’m not the kinda person you are, I dun settle for the second best, I don’t ADJUST my life with whatever I get, I don’t pretend to care for someone while playing with their feelings. So, here’s to me, my life, and my happiness!!!